Persecution

Geez....didn't expect it to come and also didn't quite take it as one until sis and mom told me bout it. Well, it started on Tuesday la during Taekwondo. Blackbelt sir was explaining to us about the rules and regulations of the sparring competition this Sunday of which I couldn't go because got church. To be honest, if it wasn't on a Saturday or Sunday, I would certainly sign up for this competition loh, win or lose also don't really care, just wanna get experience of either winning or losing. Anyway, back to the story. While he was explaining the stuffs, the Master came in and heard everything. Then when we supposedly got up to train, Master called those who weren't going to stand at the corner. That was when it all began.

When I was walking to the corner, he was already looking weirdly at me because I'm the only red belt and senior who didn't go for the competition. A group of us gathered there and he asked whether any of us could go and help set up the sparring vest, become secretary and stuff. He asked us to put up our hands and later come in front but of course none of us did. Then he started asking weird questions. Seeing me with a red belt buckled around my waist(wahhahaha memory verse) he really really wanted to know why I didn't go.

M: You. Why cannot go and help?

S: Sir, I got church.

M: Your church whole day wan ar?

S: No, sir.. in the morning only. I can go and help in the afternoon.

So far I still quite good right.. SOOOO kuai..kinda unexpected from me..Maybe cuz I'm talking to a blackbelt dude.

M: You go church do what? Sweep the floor?

S: 0_O.....err no.. Worship God?

M: How you worship God?

By this time I already pelik d....how to answer leh??It's like singing songs, listen to sermon, and then got group devotion summore. Anyway, it sure did continue.

S: Sing songs?

M: OOOHH.. Sing songs. You must sing songs everyday wan meh? Is it compulsery?

S: No.

M: The people cannot sing songs without you ar?

S: No.

And then knowing that he couldn't change my mine, he kinda like showed he gave up on me with the kind of attitude "haiya this boy hopeless". By this time it was totally awkward d.

Many other things happen to the extent of him quoting Jesus and calling me a priest. His saham terus jatuh man. I was like totally disappointed and felt like just leaving class and go to dad's office to read One Piece or do something else. Well, somehow I stayed until end of class and told my sis bout it and she was like yer here and yer there.

It kinda hurts to get talked on like that in front of a group of people and the person I respected. Somehow, I felt I didn't really defended God for that moment and I was kinda guilty la. I was kinda scared and also embarrassed to talk bout this matter. What I learned from this is that there will be many more persecutions awaiting me and also testing my faith in God, considering the fact that I'm in a school where Christians are like super rare. Nevertheless, I MUST be sure to defend God and also make sure that whatever I say or do will not hancurkan His nama. To be practical, there are times in class where God should be defended but I kinda just say a bit only la and also stop mixing with some of the people who are quite vulgar. Sometimes I feel the way I behave in class very contrasting to what God is.Those are the aspects in which I'm gonna change this year. Anyway that's my spiritual condition la..if Marcus reading this then this Sunday no need to share d. wahahaha