Sedih aku

I'm sad, disappointed and discouraged. Today is Sunday and we're suppose to have a football ministry. Only me, my sis and aunty Yu Ming turned up for the football thing that was held in Taman Sayang Selasih. It was kinda last minute since I only confirmed it with AYM this morning, but then I was sure most of the youths who had nothing to do or could make it knew about this football ministry today. Don't wanna mention who, let's just take this as a pep talk or something. Don't worry, I won't cry either... not like you could hear me anyway. Continuing, one of the excuses were acceptable... actually there were no excuses at all. I was just brushed aside or given the look that says, "Don't bother me". The acting thing where I'm ignored is somehow starting to seem real already... bahh. Anyway, today's football thingy was still as fun, although it would be more fun if there were more people joining us... our own people. I know only a small group of the youth knows how to play football but then think about Tse Hwei, AYM, Mr and Mrs Chua. You think they know how to play football? It wasn't so much about the game that mattered, but rather the people who were there with us. When only 5 church members turn up for a football ministry, knowing that others more were able to come, would be very disappointing and saddening. At least knowing three or four of the members couldn't make it because they REALLY had SOMETHING to do or were really busy was comforting a little. Heh... among all the times when I went for the ministry, I could clearly say the best time was when Geng Yi, Yen Mei, Yik How, El Sen, me and Hwei were there...excluding the adults. Why? Do you think all of them play very very well? Geng Yi doesn't play like a superstar, Yen Mei doesn't know how to play that well, Yik How plays basketball, El Sen isn't Peter Crouch , Hwei just watches from a distance and cheers for us, and I'm not even close to being a good footballer as well. It was rather the people that was present that day that made it enjoyable.... just like I've mentioned before. Quite a big difference from today's football eh? Just another food for thought for the week: We talked about helping in Children's work today. Are we really committed in doing it since even a football ministry is too tiring to come and help out? Is sitting at home helping the Children's Hour grow? You might say it's none of your concern since I didn't hear a firm "yes" by everyone but then the CH is as important as our youth! The CH is growing, but are we gonna just be contented and leave it there? Anyway, I'm done for today. Thinking of this makes me so frustrated so I'll just leave it in my blog rather than blotting it out in front of everyone. For the record, I AM sad, disappointed and discouraged.

Results

Results came out today....results for PMR... Want to know how I did for PMR? Well, I got 7 A's for it...don't know why I'm able to get it, but I know that God was there to pull it through for me. On 2nd thought, I do know why I was able to get 7 A's. Just another moment in time where I'm blessed by God. You might say I'm just being humble and stuff but it's kinda true that God blessed me yet again. My trial for PMR was like only 1 A and 6 B's. Wahahaha, don't go asking me to belanja makan and stuff hor? If you insist then I'll belanja but you must make sure you come out money k? PRAISE GOD!!!

Warning

Please do not read this post if you're the type who gets disgusted with cockroaches or squashing it. Anyway, for those who dares to read it, please be sure that you don't puke in front of the com or anything, I won't be held responsible for the loss of anything. Thank you.

It was a cloudy day, although in the morning. The day was so different that you would feel something wrong going to happen anytime and weird stuff happening. For example, Ken woke up at 11 rather than at 12 or 1. I was going to the showers when I saw a baby cockroach moving around. Opting to kill it, I went to the toilet to get the tissue ready to squash the cockroach. Then... the unimaginable happened.

With the tissue as my weapon, I went to my knees and took my aim at that little-disgusting-and-never-cute cockroach. The consequences were too much to bear. Missing it and it might be a big cockroach next time or it might move until Hwei sees it and screams to the top of her lungs and disable my ear drum. Anyway, I took the huge burden upon myself, and with all the courage I had summoned, I smashed it. But then hor, the tissue flew off my hand and I could not stop my hand from reaching the cockroach. So, in the end, I killed the cockroach with the tip of my middle finger. The body was still stuck on my finger when I looked at it and luckily the clean tissue was there for me to wipe it off. Well, you can say I gave the cockroach the middle finger...

Dedication to Two Great Friends

Not saying it's a totally bad day, but knowing the fact that this will be the last time Jeremy sits beside me during worship (though I still have Adrian), watching Marcus do the Hakka dance or both of them being funny is very saddening indeed. I still recall the 1st time when I met Marcus. We were on our way home in a van with a group of youths and Geng Yi was fetching us. Marcus and I were joking around with the schools' names like Mad Girl School (MGS), School For Idiots (SFI) and most notably Malacca Hippopotamus School (MHS). We were the only ones laughing a lot in the van and when I went out of the van he was the 1st to say bye to me. Jeremy, on the other hand, I met him during worship. He and Livia were shy in going in to the current youth room and I was the 1st to introduce myself to both of them. Who knew that in the later years he would be quite close with me and sit beside me during Sunday worship. Life without them would surely be empty, without anybody sending me in peace and one less person to encourage me. But nevertheless, I wish both of you along with your father, Uncle Ivan, the best in New Zealand. Though it may be tough and I am not able to understand the problems you'll be facing, but I know that God will always be there to help and guide you. Continue to grow in the Lord and be a shining light for Him. Take Arsenal losing to Middlesbrough as a parting gift as well :P. Also I dedicate this picture and video to both of you.....and you're dad...if he wants.

"Grow in the Lord", says Arsene Wenger

5th December

A very important date indeed...not gonna tell you why :P

PS: Every blog will have at least a short post right?