The Decision

Sometimes I just wish I have more of myself rather than more time to do more things. Being in USM for the 4th week, it has been a time of setting priorities; which to commit, which to leave behind, which church to go, what to do at this time. Things like that.

During that 4-week period, I've come to realised that there are many things I want to join or do (24 seasons drum, Christian Fellowship, debate, church activities) and also time is no friend of mine. I suppose this dilemma is present for all since we all share the 24-hour cycle, but for me (and Christians perhaps), things are a little different.

Having a higher authority over me, I owe God my service.

By service, it means to be faithful to His work and be an active participant in whatever measure I can.

By service, it means to devote time to His work.

By service, it means to leave your interests, no matter how big they are, to do His work.

By service, it means God is first, and you are second.

It took me a while to cope with that, with thoughts like; 

God wouldn't make me sacrifice my interests for His sake.

God would surely leave some time for me to use right?

Surely I can have freedom over what I want to do.

These thoughts were, at the least, self-centred. Having committed myself to Him, I suppose it is only right that His work be first over my interests. God isn't being mean by making me do so, He just deserves it.

The moment I accepted the privilege of being His son, I accepted also the responsibility that came;

Him first, everything else second. 

I've learned that when there are conflicts of interests between these two, I need to select the one that best benefits God, not me. Tough lesson, but valuable nonetheless.

Not like God preferred His own interests over mine when He sent Jesus to die for my sins anyway.